The day i had my first laugh,
My parents adored me.
The day i took my first step,
They were surprised.
It's was really a big day
With lots of happiness in their faces
As if they have achieved a big prize
I still remember how people use to treat me
When I was a lil toddler.
I still remember how they were worried
When i fall down and cry.
And I still remember how happy I was
When i caught their attention.
Slowly everything faded
Everyday had became a thorn-bed
A millions of thorns laid where i have to walk on
Millions of insecurities in every part of my body
The self harmed, cuts and hurts
From the heart unsatisfied
The hidden tears and pain
Filled with anguish torment
Covered every inch n corner of my body
There were none who worries about my falls
But rather make me fall more deeper
And make me feel more unworthy.
Comparison, Duties, Pressures, Responsibilities,
Overthrown my life
Less friends, less talks, less interest
More work, more serious, more tension
This is really a Life that i never dreamt of
The life that no one warned me about.
©Ermina Kam
E