water

my skin shines from the sun
turned pail blue
shining and changing as this silent bed moves
I feel as though my insides are floating
way above my head
complete calm and bliss
untill my lungs can't take it any longer
I hold still
as the fingers of my liquid bed caresses every inch of my skin
soft and cold
I watch the murky darkness around me
as my biggest fear kicks in
and still my only love
wondering what could be out there
what could be seeing me
I listen to pure silence
a different type of music I've never heard
yet somehow tranquil
as every part of me turns into it's surroundings
my lungs feel like they are being crushed
but my mind chooses this moment to become completely still
my face flushes
and I close my eyes
I feel the bubbles around me
as I begin to forget witch way is down
fingers brush against my mind
telling me to open my mouth
telling me I need to quinch my need
but I think I may be addicted
to the feeling of being gone
I sit within myself
my body for the moment doesn't exist
the dripping starts in my mind
that's the only sound that rings out
I feel liquid rush from somewhere
but my mind won't let me think where
untill finally I open my eyes
in silent surprise
I see myself staring back at me
the reflection telling me of a memory
something moves in my mind
and a spark lights my vision
I swim frantically to the surface
when I reach the top a gasp screams out of me
reality hits me
as the cold hits my face
and unwanted sounds invades my ears
I look to the water
my murky bed of memories
I look to the sky
witch has probably saved me
but the feeling trys to pull me back under
but I know I cant
so reality takes me away
away from the water
Naomi~wingedfeature