I said that I love you
Though I know not what it means...
Does it mean a night of passion in bed???
Does it mean I can't get you outta my head???
Does it mean without you I'm dead???
Does it mean for better or worse???
Until that last ride in a pearl white hearse???
The word love is so oft times abused
The word love is so oft times misused
Used for all the wrong reasons
Just for thirsty lustful pleasings
Just to get what one wants
While in the end another it haunts...
When Mr. Webster defined love he said,
"It was an intense feeling of deep affection"
The Boys from Liverpool said,
"All you need is love, Love is all you need"...
From the above please make your selection...
I did not grow up in a "loving family"
Surrounded by caring compassionate people
I was the "plaything", at three, of an older aunt
Later by two more aunts where a blanket over us
A blanket that hid what we did was our steeple...
I learned things from three to thirteen I should not
I learned at a young age of passions that ran hot
In my young mind??? That was what love was...
My lessons did not stop with my aunts, oh alas no...
Soon I will be three score and ten
For three score and seven the nightmares
Come to haunt me again and again
So much so stands on my body the hairs...
A child should be able to go their mother and speak
Speak of the horrors that haunt them at night
Alas, love in my family was at best weak
So I had to go to therapy to learn wrong from right...
To hear my mothers words echo in my head
"He's lying, my sisters would never do that"
Face the facts mother who taught her at eight
Your precious family isn't all that great...
When I left the Army I had myself tested for potency
My Dr told me that if I were to go to war I did not
Have enough soldiers to put up a decent fight...
In other words, Being a father was not in my cards
The children that were my were not, blood tests
My brother was the father and to my mother???
That was ok for I'd never make a "good father"...
Now as I learn more about love's real meaning
I give strength to those who suffered demeaning
I fill them with positive energy every time we meet
I give them copies of my book for words sweet
With everyone I meet I leave my mark, my energy
These people are young, male and female alike
I have become their elder, they my children
Though I give them so much energy that I'm drained
They are for awhile and oft times longer, a part of me...
The important thing is "I SHOW THEM I CARE!!!"
So again I Ask... What Does It Mean???
JJSweets 02Nov21 09:03hrs
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