What I crave

I never imagined myself going to extremes,
of wanting another man.
I always felt so comfortable with the one I have.
For this I don't understand.
The dreams I have been having are nothing what I have with him.
I feel myself heading towards sin.
The man in my dreams, doesn't hold me like the way he does,
But holds me with lust.
I love my boyfriend, but he really isn't what I want.
it's all fairy tales and pinky dust.
What I crave, I never get.
What I want, is what I let.
I'm crossing a bridge, I never thought I would.
I'm doing nothing more than I should.
I crave what he won't give to me.
This is my deception, just let it free.
©terrylin53