*What if I die*
I have a cancer
and I would like to have an answer What if I die?
I don't know how, when and where
I will say goodbye
What if I die?
I don't know who will pray,
Who will cry
And who will go away
Please someone to reply?
What if I die?
I will fly so high
Into the seven sky
What if I die?
I will never mind if one day
They will say
She was wrong
Or she was strong
What did I do ?
Was i bad ?
Yes, but they don't know that it was too hard
And i was so sad
No one understand me
Especially the period of chemotherapy
With depression and anxiety
I'm not complaining
Or blaming
May be im explaining
I know that we aren't perfect
But I just need respect
Pain, pain, pain
I feel like someone who hits a nail in my brain
At night, there was a lot of noise
That's why my eyes couldn't close
With all this i appreciate my life a lot and i thank God because he gave me the energy to try to forget my past, accept my present and expect the best for my future
Im not against dying
But without suffering
Neither moral nor physical
For me and my family
Days and years go by
But I'm still staying in my place
And in front of my reality im face to face
Just trying to put a smile on my face
For Mom and for some
It's easier for me to suicide
But i have faith that my God, my family, friends and doctors are here on my side
We will fight together
We will fight forever
Until my last breath
Until my death.
© Tanmoy 🥀
©lostlove00
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