What if's

What if I told you.... That all those smiles were fake, and all those laughs were forced?
What if I told you
That everyday
I wake up and say
"Why aren't I dead yet? "
That everyday
I dread doing anything at all?
How would you treat me then?
What if you knew all along,
that you're part of the reason
I'd rather be dead right now?
What would you do?
What would you say?
If only
you knew
the pain I go through
The struggles I face
But
in this case,
you'd rather not know,
right?
If only you did
©k._lynnn