I'm not very good at poetry
every time I start.....
My mind goes wild
What event shall I dive into today
What will I try to process while writing
Maybe the time I was rape
It's something I still struggle with
How just seeing someone with his face
Makes me panic
How if some sounds like him my chest caves and I can no longer breath
Wait what about growing up with a mother who suffers from depression
How to Express this memories?
Maybe picture this
12 years old little girl
walking in on her mother passed out
With a cigarette burning the couch
And the pain meds spilled on the night stand
4 years later with her first job
Working 40 hour weeks
Just to make ends meet because
Mother got fired again
No the time I last Hurd my daughters heart beat
How perfect it sounded strong and ready for the world
How I felt when It was time to say goodbye
The pain of giving birth to her knowing she would not be coming home.
What can I write about today,
What can I fix to make me whole again?
©ever
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