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whats waiting on the otherside

There is a noose hanging from the rafters in an abandoned shed 
hidden from the road no one would find me until Long after I was dead
The  Noose was used to hang victims found guilty of witchcraft and other evil deeds 
That haunt the old shed  with their screams and desperate pleas 
I visit the shed everyday so I can find the courage to end my life 
everyday I am one step closer to entering the afterlife
I don't know what's waiting on the other side
or if there's a punishment for taking my own life
 some believe your soul is trapped in between heaven and Earth 
to be tormented and tortured turning pain into a curse
some believe death is the end there is no afterlife 
no golden stairway no angels and no bright white light.
 my mom believed we are reborn until we learn the lessons to be an enlightened soul
ending my life is the only way I'll ever know
but the uncertainty scares me; it's whats keeping me alive.
I would have taken my life a long time ago if I knew whats waiting on the other side.
©opheliamie