whats wrong with me

Can't see why? I must I live alone and die? I was her rock and she my hope. And without her how shall I cope? All I can feel is sorrow and pain. Even with the sun shining I live in the rain. It's safe to say I would've done anything for you. I am in shame for what I would do to have you again. Your like a disease that will take from me the last thing I have. Let me not wake and this hell end then I will believe in more than the pain. What is wrong with me?