When I think of my mother I dont see my mom
I see a women who has fought her whole life from men who have broken her
I see a single parent who raised 2 kids by herself
A women who has been hit,raped,mentally abused, and threated, but is still breathing through it all.
When she thinks of me I don't know what she see's
I hope she see's a strong women who gave no shits and never let anyone stand in her way.
I hope she see's the fights and long battles I have gone through to make my life the best it can be.
But when she speaks to me I feel she sees a heartless bitch
She has struggled with the same issues as me from men trying to use her to someone taking advantage of your body
But I'm heartless because I won't let them back into my life.
She speaks telling me about her pain and how she was broken then ask me to make room for the man who used my body like a toy in my life.
In the same sentence.
She gave me hope she would understand why I'll never speak to him then ask me to Torture myself for him.
What I want to know is when will I be enough or when is it time to walk away
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