You never knew that I walked around with a condition that breaks me.
I pretend that I'm okay, but my heart is damaged, so I can go on acting like everything is good.
That way you won't need me.
I breathe in every ounce of lies that I tell you.
I breathe out every ounce of terror, I feel because guilty is what's the truth.
Sometimes, I almost believe what I'm saying, that's when I look at my face in the mirror.
I tell myself to just hold on a little longer, things won't be so bad.
Everyone has a past, and everyone has been broken that's what I find so sad.
When I'm gone, you won't have to be so sad anymore.
My heart will always be there for you that I know for sure.
They say heaven is beautiful, I guess I will find out soon enough.
My mind strays back and fourth so forgive me if its tough live in feeling.
I never wanted pity, just a little love.
I never wanted the moon and the stars.
I just wanted to know that you care enough to bring me peace where you are.
I know that life is not what you make of it.
But, I do know that sometimes life is just not fair.
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