tortured by the thought of you.
every aching moment the same.
every fantasy a fleeting memory.
in a darkened room I searched for the taste of you.
torn by a touch.
a kiss I never again will receive.
dying.
as you come and go.
the agony of watching you leave.
my lungs choke they burn.
dreams conceived by you.
I toss.
I turn.
the cold eats me.
the night kills me with silence.
you were my only solace.
and now I'm alone.
not feeling your warmth is a death sentence to me.
yet I dream of what used to be.
it was a love betrayed.
I wanted light but was swallowed in the dark.
it was a complex hell.
yet we still burn together.
passions we can not comprehend.
yet it was where my dreams of you came to die.
the bedsheets had no effect.
the cold caresses my skin again and again.
it wasn't the same.
the kiss that haunts me in my bed.
again and again I think of you.
again and again I feel a ache.
knowing I was still in love.
still wanting you.
yet you're gone.
knowing I was torn between getting over you and moving on.
©darkmocha
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