Home alone, bored and thinking
As life passes by in my ears its ringing
How am I gonna make a change?
Can I shoot my shot outside my range?
To family, I'm the worst person ever made
The contempt increases as I grow in age
24, no mom, broke dad, broke self
I need to break the jinx I say to myself
But how? I've tried, now I'm drained
Can't seem to get out of this cage
Emotionally, mentally and in every ally
Exhausted as I seem to roam the same valley
Suicidal thoughts like before slowly creep in
'Since they think so badly of you, give in!!'
'Why not end it' they whisper
Be done already, don't linger
Like before different options come again
Whatever you do theres lots to gain
Overdose, drink it, slit it, be quick
There's nothing to risk
Another says, think first, wait first
Would it quench the thirst
That's had you immersed
That you have nursed
Seeming like you've been cursed?
Would it solve it, would it have been worth it?
What next after death?
What next as u draw your final breath
And the most recent whisper
Wow!! So you a quitter
The universe scorns against those
with disregard for life if you don't know
©odufua
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