It's 1993. I've been given the best family
Two loving parents and an older brother who will become my best friend
Relationships I should never have to mend.
It's 2001. I'm sitting in the hallway of my school
I've been given everything a child could need or want but my head still hits the wall
It makes me feel something instead of nothing at all.
It's 2005. In my eyes I've still yet to thrive
Sitting on my bed in our new house my body is a brand new car, all scratched up by a locker key
I can't seem to get it right but I love my friends and family.
2011 I'm close to heaven. I've met the boy I will marry and I'm pursuing my dream to teach
My dreams of my own family seem in reach.
It's 2017 and you'll soon start to see what I mean
It's midnight and I'm in my own home listening to my mother sob on the phone
She speaks of my father's intentions to leave
There's a stir in the house, it's a friend of the family
Soon I'm the one giving the news
It's happening right in front of my eyes
I watch my father and her leave without a goodbye.
It's 2019. My husband and I make the best team. I spend my days teaching children who share my same dream
We each desire a whole family, like the one I was born into
But years have gone by without the sight of my father or my brother, now just people I once knew
Years of dreaming of having what I used to
If this is not who I'm meant to be, then who?
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