Why?

I'm hiding my face once again because no matter how hard I try to explain my self no one seems to understand. My spirit, dreams and hope are broken. I feel scared and tired of scaring myself, I don't know how I'll mend my hopes to build up my spirit and literally accomplish my broken dreams. I want so much more out of life, but how? I'm screaming out loud for help, my heart is way deeper than the ocean, filled with hurt, pain, and much more feeling's unexpressed, Am I not supposed to be happy, why don't you gaze at me with the spirit of helping me out, why are you just looking at me as if I'm from another planet, why don't you drive out the hate in you, replace it with love help me out.
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