Why am I like this???

Why am I like this,
why am I so naive and impulsive,
why can't I take stand in the crowd,
and my voice can't become a loud sound,
when people dare to say me a dumb bell,
then, why can't I rebuke them and quell,
when someone make a comment on me that I hear,
then, why can't I give a back answer and just forbear,
when people betray me for my soft heartness,
then, why I get in tears and cry in all the darkness,
when someone speak to me so harshly and sharply,
at that time, why I still talk to them so gently and quietly,
why can't I give a strong opinion in every time,
and why I allow someone to take decisions of my life,
when someone state that "You can't do anything,"
that time, why can't I chide saying that
"Don't you dare to say me these thing,"
when someone takes advantage of my feelings,
then, why can't I smack him for his evil doings,
when people assume me weak and incapable,
then, why can't I show them that I am able to do different,
when people make use of me for only selfish pro,
then,why can't I tell them that
"I am not a thing which you'll use and throw,"
when people ask me to do some,
then, why can't I say 'No' to them,
why am I like this,
and why I face all that I don't deserve to....
.......Kanak Maheshwari
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