But why
I gave him respect
Treated him like an elder
And all he saw
Was someone to take advantage of
He took my happiness away
I thought I would find a way
to forget
I don't know how to say it
Don't know who to tell
kept it inside for too long
It hurts too much
I can still feel his hands
Still hear him shushing me
I can still feel him getting it inside there
Everytime I close my eyes
He is always there
It always appears
He is my everyday nightmare
If only I could turn back time
I should have shouted
Maybe he should have stopped
Or killed me
That would be better than living me in pain
I thought it would pass
I thought the pain would stop
Years went by
And it getting worse and worse
It's taking over me
It's killing me slowly and slowly
It's a living nightmare
I wish for it to stop
But don't know how
Faking a smile
And everyone believe I am fine
Believing I am the happiest child
It's not working anymore
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