My life's not good it's great compared to what it used to be.
I got my girls in my life again. Why wouldn't I be happy?
I am, at least I think I am... Am I,
I'm around you two every day yet I still feel the urge to cry,
Why? Why the urge to cry?
Why does it get worse as the time goes by.
I try. Oh how much I try. To know why.
Why do I try to lie and think I don't need to cry. Oh why.
Why do I lie. To you and to me. To me my own self you see,
That things are as they should be.
So just be happy. The voice says inside of me.
But the urge is company for me. It's not me but we.
The tears and me trying to just be happy.
I know I have you and that's a blessing
There's just something in my heart that I'm still missing,
And it hurts the more I find myself waiting,
Waiting, debating, procrastinating, complaining, evading, contemplating, but never initiating. All the things that make me feel like crying. Crying when I should just be happy.
Why. Why the urge to cry. I'm happy ain't I? Well I try...
©justin_ur
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