why do I always find myself thinking about you...
I know I shouldn't
I don't love you
I couldn't.
It's so complicated. I barely thought of you before you passed away. Now I can't stop. it's been 3 years.
is it just, reminiscing the good old days? remembering childhood fantasies? am I just stuck because I can never have closure? I can never ask how you felt? or share how I felt...
I fear I am convincing myself I meant more to you than I did. I may have been easily forgotten. but then sometimes I wonder....
it was only 2 weeks after..
you probably would have heard by then..
did I really matter that much to you?
I can't have.
We never went out. We never dated.
I'm not even sure I remember that well.
I can't be the reason. That would be crazy. You can't have even thought of me once since then.
it's just a coincidence...
I doubt you even heard I got married.
©coral
C