During the winters sky
I feel my soul be froze
Am I lost here alone for life
Or just temporary
When do I meet my winter coat
When will I be found
Found from this loneliness
When will the warmth arrive
My heart frozen and close to shattered
I wait in my corner
My corner of shattered glass
I question if this is a mirror
A mirror of my frozen heart
I’m nowhere expected
Nowhere expected years ago
I feel my pages of life
My pages of life ripped
Ripped into two
I scream at night
Will this night end or finalize me
I run to what I count on
What I count on now disappeared
Disappeared from the large void
The small piece filling the large void
Filling a small but large piece of puzzle
If all would take was a step in the snow
Laying to slow my heart rate to see you
Maybe it is that dream before my last breath
Or just a hallucination
When do I meet my winter coat
When will I be found
Found from this loneliness
When will the warmth arrive
My heart frozen and close to shattered
This may be my last moment
I feel sudden warmth
The sudden warmth to fix one crack
One of the thousands of cracks
Thousands of cracks to my heart
My heart before it shatters
My lips still numb and blue
Still so tired and want to say goodbye
Say goodbye to fade away
Fade away as I feel as if forbidden
Forbidden from a dream each day
Each day left in pain
In pain to want to leave
Is the night finally finalizing me
Finalizing me to say goodbye
Each soft breath so weak
But not as weak as I was for you
May I say goodbye
May I be left
Left in the memories
Memories of those who cared
Who cared for me
Cared enough to not hate
Not hate me for this choice
With my wrists red
It colors the winters snow
May there be beauty
Beauty of the last color
Last color left in me
Color of red
Red without rage
Even as I lay here
Lay here as if to disappear
Still that warmth tries to heal me
Heal me before I say my last goodbye
My last goodbye to those who care
Care for me
Weather this warmth has me
Has me survive in this world
World of pain and dismay
I will know when I wanted to leave
Leave and be but a memory
Memory of one you loved
I’ll always be here for you
I’m nowhere expected
Nowhere expected years ago
I feel my pages of life
My pages of life ripped
Ripped into two
©angelsfall
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