I wanted love.
I wanted trust.
I wanted your affection.
I wanted your lust.
I wanted you to hear me
To see me and smile
I wanted you to hug me
and maybe linger a while.
It sounds like a lot
but really it's not much
Wouldn't cost you a dime
to offer a kiss or warm touch.
I watch you as you walk
and sometimes as you sleep
And even now years later
feel my heart flutter and leap.
Do you see me this way?
Do you see me at all?
Do you sit and quietly observe
as I cook or make a call?
I know that you must see me
We live at the same place
but when you see me do you really look
and do I ever make your heart race?
It feels like you don't notice
but for me that's never the case
I have drank in the outlines of your skin
and I have memorized the creases of your face.
I have looked at you so much
with you completely unaware
that the love I felt brought tears to my eyes
but I wonder if you would care?
How can my love be so obvious
so real and raw and open
and yours be so detached
leaving me sad, alone and broken?
Why have my feelings increased with age
and yours seem only to have dwindled away?
I don't know the answers but I'd give anything to go back
even if just for a day.
I miss the you that I once knew,
the one who loved me and never strayed
I know that he's gone and never coming back
but God, I really wish he had stayed.
~ Rachel G. Ezell
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