Sometimes I wonder what's wrong with me.
I am stuck in an infinite circle, tirelessly.
Expecting low outcomes, thankfully.
They mess with the beast, wanting a piece.
Memories tend to bring up alot of regret.
But with all my sins what do I expect.
So many good chances I still reject.
Someone took Joy and pushed eject.
Let's see if we can get people to understand.
Joy is exiled but not really banned.
Anger is at the wheel, nothing goes as planned
But Sadness and Disgust seemed to have ran.
Now I sit up at night, watching the stars.
Hoping that one day she won't be so far.
I wonder what would happen if I jumped in a car.
And find my last piece off of my jar.
The jar that held my childhood stable.
The glass that made my life a fable.
Instead of dangling me from a cable.
Fighting to not fit under any label.
It's on my mind, people think I'm jokin'
Justice depends on all that's spoken.
I am still looking for that last token.
But I dont want her heart to be broken.
Just one more to say I'm a success.
A score big enough to pay off less.
It is a dream but hard to do, I will confess.
One big check to relieve all of the stress.
Do I think to much on what can go wrong.
Can I show her that I am not so strong.
A year is short but seems to long.
Does she agree or play a different song?
Sometimes I feel like I am rushing this.
I get so angry but am still a little bitch.
I punch walls to just release the twitch.
To give someone something needed to stitch.
I am a monster, I am well aware.
But to her I feel an urge to be fair.
Cant fall asleep left me in a stare.
And no sleep has me wishing for Nightmares.
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