my body is n pain
it aches
I'm not lazy
i just can tell them the truth
my body's n drug pain
it's been one-day of being sober
n it's not easy
messing thinking tossing n turning
cuz I said I was done
but n my dream
I'm saying "I'ma just snort. just one." this last one.
then I wake up n cold sweats
wake. ack to another day of this shit.
even if I conquer jobs
as I always do
I still fill like shit
becuz I'm the one left behind
nothing I do they dnt see as good
he'll these r the same people who did all the could
to turn me out
into this lonely addict
let's make get the big chosen one
so she'd b a user worse then use
more then us
by r durstruct
they knew I had feelings
I had a heart
I didn't know pouring out ur feelings
that the wolves read it
to Kno ur weakness
I didn't know that being to honest
will make a man leave ya
leave u for the one who's lie n hide wat they really do
n who they really r
we're I'm from whores are the winners
I'm just now n this door game
do I'm not really good at it as them
I dnt fuck for dope
I buy it
to we're they fuck for it
n i guess that shows there value
this place is a hell whole
it's the devil's grounds
ur pryers r unheard here
everything here is down
nothing ever changes
just the smuggling on more drugs
we're all off if meth
n that's the devil's grounds
it took me from my kids
it took me from myself
I was once the god girl
who always stayed n the house
I do ally one-day cursed my mother
cuz for once I just wanted to go out
momma said it was bad for me
don't go out side
it'll will hurt u
n the wolves would b outside watching me n my children n inpkay
n shine n heavens lights
it is b reading my Bible watching as they play outside
the wolves were n my bushes
pissed off
"y she so godly. y she's so pretty. wat her herre wrongs.."
they were wondering.
watching
plotting all along
so one-day I got fed up
with being stuck at home
not fed up with my responsibility
just once dance in the air alone
for once spread my wings
n search for a true friend
it someone that I could read poems to n sing my new written sing.
not knowing telling my mom I'm going out
would led n to a fight
the wolves heard me say
I was fed up
they were listening to r fight outside
so they spread into the woods
n set traps for me before I left itt the door to leave
I can't ever watch
Rapunzel
because she is me.
I went into the the woods
crying
going against my mother
one solve captured me
"wat wrong anna."
I never loomed eye to eye wit the wolves
cuz I knew it wasn't an angel
I just wanted u derstanding so bad
but wolves have no understanding
"it's my mom. I cried
sheets me do nothing.
so the wolve whips my eyes.
n suddey it's gone
it's running
running to twist my words round
n say I hate my mother.
now they Kno my weakness
now they Kno r issues
the more I ran n to the wolves away from home
the dark ess caved n
now I'm like a person n he'll seeing heaven
but it's me the darkness looking at my old home.
she was protecting me n savibg me
n I done her wrong
I'm sorry momma
n eryday I miss home
I'm sorry for going outside
n now even my kids r gone
hearing there laughs. footsteps
of old memories
waking up
thinking there next to me
but it was just a dream
a dream
of them n I dancing
but this time I'm paying attention
Im watching my surroundings n not fully focusing on them
I shouldn't have fuly focused on them
In order to see the wolves
do I could protect myself n them
I failed them
I failed myself
now the wolves have me
now I'm homeless n a now addict
thats stuck n this dark relm
by.Anna Vinson
©anistic
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