I sense Indifference when I come through,
Provoking thoughts I have to review,
Many bets I’ve already withdrew,
From others, now it’s you too.
Cannot add to the ties that I sever,
Cannot even find my own center.
It feels like you’re acting so whatever
About if we spend time together.
With or without me, “a days a day”
That talks turning me away,
I really wanted to stay…
I really wanted to say…
I wanted to tell you how much I care,
That I think we’d be a nice pair.
But I’m trying not to overshare,
And my feelings only play mute or blare.
You’re probably just having an affair
I’m choosing to remain unaware.
Then again, these meds really impair
My thinking and it's not fair-
To you or anyone of my past.
I know the forecast,
We’ll play around have a blast,
But, we won’t last.
I’ll somehow become uninspired
Or maybe just real tired.
That’s just how my brain is wired.
Fired only after I’m desired
Cannot tell if it’s me or my mind,
Playing tricks of this kind.
Still wish we were intertwined,
Maybe you and I combined.
Is something kind of good.
Do you think that we could?
Do you think that we should?
©falinawake
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