You

‘All will be well’
Was what I told myself
Having to see your embracing smile
And feel the warmth of your hug
Now I’ve realised that was you
Being you even when facing giants in your life
This world is missing one of its master piece
I choke on my own breath while tears cascade my face
A huge knot forms within me, making it even more painful
I have wishes that can’t come true anymore
Having you gone left me speechless
Seeing you lay in the casket, all life drained from you
Hit me so hard, drowning in my own heart break
Knowing that you had to be gone from our lives, my life
To realise that I loved you so much
You had an aura around you
That drew people to you
You loved too much yet didn’t
Expect to be loved back
I can’t name them all
What I can say is, she misses you dearly
They miss you, I miss you
Showering in your memories
To feel close to you, to see you
To feel you beside us
That’s what you left us with
An incense that keeps away the stench
Of misery and grief that always
Looks for gaps to come right through
Sometimes it just makes no sense
No sense at all to lose you
You were what we could never be
You’re existence a blessing
Touching souls of those you reached out to
I keep rewinding my thoughts of you
To make myself feel better
Only to end up all shattered again
You will always be loved and remembered
Our beloved.
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