why do I keep coming back
why do I put myself through the thoughts
I say I want you out of my life
yet I keep finding myself coming
across you in my thoughts my words
my dreams
I hear you in a movie
I hear you in a song
I been through this before with you
I have let you go before
but this time I can't
first it was you whom reached out
now it's me and for what
the pain I feel knowing your not mine
the pain knowing your my escape
the pain knowing I still love you
the pain knowing I put you before myself still
you said it once before too
your toxic to me and me to you
I can't let you go and you can't let me go
why though
why
I don't understand you left me
am I just a game
and I'm just your pawn
©brittany
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