please say that your phone broke,
please say you fell asleep because of my long notes,
please say your battery died,
please say reception was bad, you don't know why.
big surprises are are in store, gifted from the universe, to the boy next door, I can't say what's going on, but you know for sure, and when you finally want to text me back, I'll look and say who the fuck is that? I hope you feel it in your core. I stood by you after you said wait. tried to show you that love is more than sex. sex is easy, sex is fun, sex is the original hit it and run. sex is sex. an action that doesn't need emotion at all, If sex is all I wanted I'd give the girl on buckeye a call. I wanted someone that I could to truly connect with on a deeper level,I thought you were my angel, but your the devil. the damage is done, I'll tell whoever I'm with next asks, "why I am so damaged?" not opening up, the someone i did for the first time since Iraq, only to be ignored, hurt, and neglected. basically stabbed in the back.truthfully, with her that was not what was expected, it is a lesson on trust and faith, so before you treat her like she is royal, check for the split tounge, and fangs, because with out warning, that snake is ready to strike laying there coiled. I know 1st hand who I can't trust and who stays loyal. wanted to find a foundation about who I am and what is between us, and mutual trust. I knew use my heart and not my lust. I was off to a good start, you even dropped the other guy, but I got abandoned and I don't know why, I wanted to help you raise your kids, and that's not a line, and you can see i loved them like they were mine. you ignored it but that was the universe sending you a sign. it's the thing that connected us, and It was felt, I know it was, and you thought it was for your drugs, why do I need yours when I got like 5 plugs, most don't even charge me, I'm pretty discreet. collecting all the payments from my days on the street. i wanted you because there was a strange connection. now if you came here, I'd head the other direction, I'm not the guy who sleeps around like I'm adding you to a collection, he is the dude that gets and gives infections. I will have to wait another lifetime for US to connect. if that was this life mission, I'll have to be reincarnated again, so my souls flame can join it's twin. In this life now, you burnt this bridge. I AM THE GUY, who wanted you and your kids, so I had a family. I guess maybe it is the universe that has damned me. oh, you didn't know, but now you can see, you blew the shot of a lifetime, (most singles over 40 want), attractive, retired, good with your kids, money and land, and I never showed you the stick. I thought I shouldn't yet, it has its own set of tricks, that's why I'm pretty particular about who I give It to when the legs split. that's all, that's it! Oh, You didn't know, here ya go, ponder this,your legs tremble Luke my heart did.and I shut down my heart, closed for repair. It could be permanent. you did this and don't even care
©leostar
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