you were a drug

friends.
that's what you wanted.
dreams about you still came and gone.
the want of you still haunt me.
time and time again.
I saw you in my sleep.
wanting a taste of the girl I'd never see.
yet it kills me.
just to want you as a friend.
the agony of More.
the irony of what could be.
as I dreamt of you more.
knowing you were a drug.
I got addicted to the high.
thousand different angles I watched you in all the time.
wanting heaven.
wanting you as mine.
knowing you didn't know it.
all the time.
knowing I was a addict to love.
most of the time.
craving hell.
you were the neon lights that made me blind.
yet I dream of you.
you stayed in a apartment rent free in my mind.
yet I love it all the time.
knowing you were the escape in my mind.
yet you wanted to just be my friend.
stubborn.
knowing the agony of you wasn't mine.
yet I wanted you.
like weed.
I got high off the thought of you could be mine.
©darkmocha