Christmas and gifts
Christmas isn't just a holiday,
it's an examination of conscience.
When I receive money from my dad's mom,
I feel a pang.
It's not just money:
it's the sign of an absent grandmother,
who doesn't know what I like,
how old I am,
what my name is.
Money without thought,
without love.
Coins to cover the silence
and indifference built up over the years.
I don't feel like my grandmother.
Not a loved one,
Just someone who doesn't know me
and will never know me.
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