Tonight, my heart surprised me.
What started as a simple question became something I never expected. I asked him whether he had ever done Solat Istikharah regarding us, and when his answer arrived, I sat there staring at the screen. No thoughts came to my mind. Not a single one.
My eyes simply filled with tears.
Strangely, I was smiling while crying. I even laughed a little through the tears, as if my heart had received something before my mind could understand it.
He told me that he had done Istikharah before. He told me that although he never received any dreams or clear signs, he genuinely appreciated the time we shared. And if Allah had written this path for us, he would be glad about it.
Most of all, he said he would like for us to explore things together slowly. Perhaps that was what touched me.
For so long, I had wondered whether the patience, the waiting, the kindness, and the consideration I received from him meant something deeper.
I still want to take my time. I still want my heart and mind to become steadier before making any important decisions. But tonight, I felt grateful.
22 June 2026 | Roseheart 🌹
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