It's been days
Now months
Without knowing what to do
As each day passes
You keep growing
I feel so weak and weary
My body is failing me
And you being in it scares me
Sleepless night
Tears won't leave my eyes
Craving for cuddles
But all I get are struggles
Craving for attention
But all I get is rejection
The candle that was meant to light my world
Now burns everything I own
Flames of passion gone wrong
Screams from my body burning up
As everyone watches from a distance
She did this to her self
It's all I can hear
I'm a reflection of my self
Bones protruding from my skin
Days and days of nothing in my stomach
Just a baby growing in my womb
I keep wondering how she survives
In a dying body
A shattered soul
And torned heart
I feel so alone
This journey scares me
What if I make a bad mother
What if my kid turns out just like me
Depressed
Bitter
Sad
Unhappy
As a mom I'll have failed her
And it will kill me more than this thoughts kill me now
I'm human
I make mistakes
I hurt and bleed
I cry more than I smile
But I'll work on it
Maybe I'll make the best mom
Or maybe not
©mara_pain
Life is a series of pain.
©mara_pain
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